Day 40 of 112... Routine, and Selfishness...

so the routine is suffering lately, the workouts are going good, but theyre off timing which bothers me... i know what your thinking "hows that bother you, its not that serious" "other things are more important"... yea i hear that all the time, well let me break it down for you... its not more important, nothing is... to me this is the world, my world at least... you have no clue how frustrated i get when my routine is interrupted, or set off just a little bit... i like to go to the gym at the same time every day, i like to eat at the same time every day... i eat the same thing every day... bodybuilding is a sport in which routine is VERY important. you cant just get up, lounge around for awhile, eat a bowl of cereal go to the gym for 20 minutes, then go to McDonalds and make a day of it...youve got to have some kind of stability in your day... not neccisarily for fitness in general, but for bodybuilding you need a routine, its a lot different from normal every day fitness... its a lifestyle, 24/7...
heres how the routine goes...

8am- wake up...
8:10am- animal pak (vitamins) and other various supplements...
8:15am- meal 1...
8:30am- shower...
9am- 25 gram protein shake, take pre workout supplements, and leave for the gym...
9:30am- workout...
11:15am- post workout soda, animal pak, and post workout supplements... (the soda is for the fast digesting sugar and the insulin release to shuttle the nutrients into the muscle.)
11:40am- 50 gram protein shake (which is meal 2)...
12:30pm- meal 3...
1pm- start cooking the rest of my meals for the day and start getting ready for work...
1:30pm- shower...
2:45pm- leave for work...
3:30pm- meal 4...
4pm- work...
6pm- meal 5...
8pm- meal 6...
10pm meal 7...
12am- leave work...
12:30- 45- meal 8 (bed time 60 gram protein shake, and supplements)
1am- go to sleep...

thats how my day looks... or so, thats how it looks most of the time, those are the good days when everything goes as planned. that happens maybe 4 days out of the week, the other 3 im runnin around like a chicken with his head cut off to get everything done and trying to fit other things in that people throw on me at the last minute, which normally frustrates me and ruins my whole day... so that brings me to selfishness...
i come off as selfish, im not really selfish, or i like to think not at least... but in order to achieve my goals, and be happy in the long run, i have to be selfish... i have to put my goals, and my daily routine in front of everyting in order to fit it all in... im sorry, thats just how it is, and when it gets interrupted, i look like the ass because im mad that my routine was just messed up... but im not an ass, i just have to be to keep my 16 week diet in check... i have to take food and supplements with me everywhere i go, to make sure the diet routine is followed to a T, i have to make sure i get to the gym 5 to 6 days a week to make sure all my body parts get hit correctly and thoroughly...

i take this very serious, and i work very hard to achieve the goals that i have... if im sick ill call in sick at work, but still go to the gym... tired, head hurts, bodys sore, doesnt matter, im still going to the gym, and im still gonna have a good intense workout... because i want this more than anything i can ever think of... this is my life, i am my motivation, and this is what i want to do... i need support, but in the end only i can make it happen...

"the separation of talent and skill is one of the greatest misunderstood concepts for people who are trying to excel and who have dreams that want to do things... talent you have naturally, skill is only developed from hours and hours and hours of beating on your craft..." Will Smith...

there are no magical fixes, its all ...up to you...